Life is a cup of coffee

I keep on thinking while driving, eating or even sleeping; why cant get what i want? It such a question that always play around my mind since i was in university. First because i wish to be in other course and second because of UMS. I wish to be in USM.

Finally, i realised Allah has his own plan, He provide the path. No matter where we go, having Allah by your side is important. Stop thinking about what we should get, but keep on reminding ourself, that there is too many things to be thank to Allah, an even 1 mole of oxygen we inhaled, an eye blinking. Just imagine what happen if we cant blink our eye?

But no matter how hard to be positive, sometime syaitan come and say, "you must be jealous with them, they get what they want, and you have nothing..hohoho..". Astaghfirullah. Allah forgive me. To Allah i leave all the matters, to Allah i share the problems. And there is no one else, i please to Allah.

Allah answer my question. When i attend a kind of 'majlis ilmu' held in Ayahman's house last week, Ustaz Ridzuan said, we as a human/ servant allowed to be tested by Allah. Be patient and husnu dzan are the key.

When we drink a coffee, we will observe others cup and compare them with our cup. We try to have a best cup. Our aim is a best coffee, cup is just a tool. We are concentrating on the cup and forgot to enjoy the coffee. We dont have the best of everything, but we just make the best of everything.

I keep on advicing my students " success is not by having a good grade, it is number 2, but the true success is when you can change your attitude and put more effort in whatever you do".

I borrowed words from Ainil Farhan :Before you know how to run, you must first learn how to walk. But sometimes, when you know how to run, you forgot how to walk properly. And you tend to ignore those who are walking. You might not see them walking, but they saw you running.

InsyaAllah theres no regret when you have Allah by your side.

Amal Harun
Labuan

Write a lyric

I was excited to write a song lyric, but of course there is nothing and just an 'angan-angan' mat jenin. Actually how they write a lyric and how they get the idea to arrange the song accordingly?

Akan ku jumpa

Ku mengatur langkahku
Jalan tanpa bayang-bayangmu
Langit dan bumi setia menemaniku
Matahari menyinar tak pernah berpihak padaku
Ku kepanasan tanpa perlindunganmu

Hari berganti hari aku masih teguh menanti
Hadir dirimu dalam hidupku ini
Rasa kecewa ada bilakah kita nak berlari
Namun yakin ku takkan ku temui

Ku takkan pernah cuba berhenti
Wajahku mencari cinta
Yang ku tahu hanya tuk diriku
Kan ku terus cari sampai hujung dunia

Kerna ku tahu akan ku jumpa diri mu
Dan ku kan terus menempuh mimpi-mimpiku selalu

Ku lihat semua gembira

Bila mengenali erti cinta
Senyuman ku beri hanya duka
Bila ingin teman tuk berbicara

Cinta datang sembunyi
Andai ku kabur mencari
Hadirlah dalam hidupku ini

Cinta datang engkau pergi
Bila langkah ku cuba
Untuk mengejar dirimu

Kena syukur

Sangat penat, kelas hanya 2 jam dan hanya duduk di meja pejabat sepanjang hari, tapi sangat letih. Menanda kertas tak sudah. Apabila balik ke rumah dan terus 'pengsan' dan hanya sedar ketika emak telefon. Hanya 2 minit cakap dengan emak!

Geram la nak menanda kertas jawapan pelajar. Banyak dan sungguh pening dengan tulisan masing-masing. Padahal saya sendiri adalah penyumbang kepada skrip jawapan yang memeningkan.

Kemudian bayangkan perasan semasa menanda skrip jawapan. Penggunaan mental memikirkan kesahihan jawapan yang diberi dan kebolehan mengawal emosi. Dah tentu kau panas, kau ajar lain, yang dibuat lain. Panas! (macam tak pernah jadi pelajar dulu, itu yang kau buat kan?)

Dan segala yang ditulis di atas adalah rungutan yang bukan masalah malah tugas dan tanggungjawab. Terus mendidik dan memberi galakan, bukan memindahkan fakta, tips dan formula sahaja.

Sambung balik episod penat terlampau, dan bangun kemudian mandi dan solat. Sudah hilang selera walaupun lapar. Jadi, saya menuju ke Batu Arang, paling dekat dan membeli burger. Di sinilah saya seperti mahu menangis di situ juga atau cincang saja saya biar jadi daging lumat, biar tahu harga sebuah syukur.

Seorang lelaki cina datang kepada tuan burger dan memberi apron beserta t-shirt yang dipesan. Saya hanya perhatikan dan membuat kesimpulan itu adalah baju dan apron pasukan pembuat burger di gerai tersebut. Bagus! Dia mahu mencipta kelainan dan 're-branding' seperti kata ketua jabatan saya.

Sepanjang membakar burger, roti dan telur atau menyapu majerin sekalipun dia terus berkata-kata penuh semangat. Kata kunci setiap yang dikata adalah, nak tiru logo sedia ada, ada hakcipta terpelihara, dan paling saya kerap dengar adalah berfikiran positif.

Dia seorang peniaga burger berasa bangga menjual burger, malah memandang jauh untuk menambah baik perniagaan. Sungguh bersungguh-sungguh. Kenapa tidak saya seperti itu, menjadi guru, tapi mahu menjadi doktor, menjadi doktor tapi mahu menjadi peguam tapi lebih baik jadi guru sahaja, kerjanya mudah.

Pendek kata, kerja saya sekarang dah bagus. Yang perlu dibaguskan ialah cara memandang dan pelaksanaannya. Biar ikhlas bahawa mendidik itu mulia, beruntung menjadi tenaga pengajar di KML dan berbahagialah mendapat pelajar yang mahu memperbaiki diri walaupun markah belum sampai target.

Cinta kerja saya!

Amal Harun

Labuan

Unlimited !

this is siluet, very hard to spell correctly

Begin 2011 with a bad habits.

1. A kind of laziness towards photography. Sometimes it may picture my attitude. A low self esteem to participate, for instance when they shoot a picture in front of subject, i just shoot from far without looking to the ability and type of lens.
2. Lost focus, theoretically it seems like easy. On paper things like aperture, focal length, shutter speed or ISO like swallow a liquid. But once hold the tool, everything i learnt gone. Zero knowledge!
3. Easily give up. Yes when i failed to capture a clear and sharp image, or a clean background, i feel like to sell the toy.
4. What else? any negatives? let me think it further.

Below are some photos taken during my friend's outdoor photo-shoot. Now i learn that photography is just not by pressing the button, but using a brain (physic optic) and physical part namely; mosquitoes, hot sun, rain, good critics by teachers to teach a stubborn students, the itchy grass, sweat, smoke, and last but not least people perception that may think that you are crazy enough.

And photojournalism, absolutely my interest, where photography make you look the Allah's creatures and think about Him. As Allah said in Aali-Imran verse 190, i let you to check by yourself =)

Wak nan check his setting.

Mr Syed and Mr Zul take a position to have a better angle.

Mr. Ramdan never stop to encourage and motivate me.

Wak nan try to get the best angle, i never do this.

Mr.Ramdan and Mr.Man try to comfort and direct the bridegroom

It was my first outing, a priceless experience, the images are not so important compared to the process of learning.A Photograph Never Grows Old. You and I change, people change all through the months and years, but a photograph always remains the same. How nice to look at a photograph of mother or father taken many years ago. You see them as you remember them. But as people live on, they change completely many years ago. You see them as you remember them. But as people live on, they change complete!

Amal Harun

Labuan F.T

Lending a hand

"miss amal, is it yours?" alif asked me.

"yes, why?" while rushing collecting all of my marker pen after the extra class last week.

"is it since your primary school?" Ridzwan asked. He is one of the students when you look at him, it seems like he know nothing, but when i suddenly ask him to calculate in front of the class or draw the structure of sec-butyl for instance, he manage to do.

"no, i bought it at Utama Jaya (a supermarket in Labuan)" pretending dont understand.

They may be think why i keep on using the ugly and cheap pencil case or why i still use old stuff or why their teacher is so stingy and 'selekeh'?

Well, its nothing to do with it. Its just a pencil case which i always not only put the stationeries but the calculator, name tag, handphone and magnesium trisilicate or paracetamol. Hahaha it worth and so chemically safe. Why buy a new one when the present still can be used?

Be what you are, not what people want you to look like.

خَيْرُ النَّاسِ أَنْفَعُهُمْ لِلنَّاسِ

"The best people are those who are most helpful or beneficial for other people." [Bukhari and Muslim]

Thank you.

Amal Harun

Labuan F.T

La takhaf wa la tahzan

Frankly speaking i really scared to be in 2011. Because 2010 left without any effect to me or it getting worst. Life is getting difficult, but we are getting wiser. Lets move and looking foward. Dont be scared, dont be sad because Allah is by your side. Lets listen to the song by Saujana, Patah Hati. Its like a motivation in seeking Allah's pleasure.

Kau tidak seperti dulu
Yang ku kenali dulu
Rupa hilang seri
Manakah manisnya

Kau tidak seperti dulu
Yang ku kenali dulu
Madah tak berlagu
Manakah girangnya

Patah hati
Jangan terdampar sepi
Jangan tersungkur mati
Patah hati
Jangan leburkan mimpi
Jangan memakan diri

Bukankah tuhan ciptakan malam
Untuk beradu menanti siang
Bukankah tuhan titiskan hujan
Menanti limpah kemarau panjang

O Allah, to you I leave all matters.

Amal Harun

Labuan F.T

Inspired!!

4 years ago, i was like really forced by my mother to get into education area. Because i know and really confident that i cant speak well in front of people. It make me nervous, explain the simple thing to be complex. Just because mother said to take education, so i choose education for the sake of mother.

A year after, i was offered a scholarship for science teacher by KPM. I dont know wether it is accidently or it was a fate. I should be grateful because i was one of the 400 applicants, then only a small number (60) to be selected to interview and i was succeed. From there, i thought that was only to study with zero paid. And now, it was another shortcut to get a better post in KPM.

Year by year, a lot of experiences gained, make me really responsible not only to myself but other people. I can see that life is a complex, people have their ups and down. It will be more inspired when i can learnt students life which totally different than mine. Some of them come from very rural area and never touch computer before or one of them work as a rubber tapper.

Yesterday, i was browsing a blog and suddenly stop and read a blog owned by an oral cancer survivor. The tongueless talk is written by a woman which her tongue was removed when he diagnosed tongue cancer at stage 2. And of course after removal the tongue, she cannot speak. And yet i know that she is a teacher! She mentioned that she no longer teaching but she will be remembered as a teacher forever.

The more you give, the more you share, the more you happy. Below, i proudly attached a photo of my students taken during Career Carnival last month. The inspiration begin!

O Allah, to you i leave all matters.

Amal Harun

Labuan F.T